i really cant stop my mind from thinkin arx.
have been thinkin of some personal problem.
and i really dunno wad to do or say.
is my life wad i want it to be?
am i doing things right?
is things too fast for me?
am i able to cope wid everything now?
a few of my close frens ask me dun get so stress up.
but are they able to feel wad i feel?
nobody knows wad im going through.
imagine being home and hear your parents quarrelin in front of you everyday?
and when you comes home your mum start naggin non stop.
who will understand?
the pressure that this world is givin me?
and ppl wants me to be happy?
wid all this things going on.
being happy is hard.
but acting happy is harder.
haiss~

its damn early now.

wont be bloggin much today.
had been a day.
quite tired!
but was fun.
took some pics at sentosa wid honeyy.


after so long.
i felt sweetness from you.
and finally i felt the love you gave me.
thank you!
muacks~

i dunno wad my feelings are right now.
haiss~
angry?jealous?lost?confused?sad?
argh. i really dunno.
i really dunno wad i want.
wad i expect from you.
caring?loving?romantic?sweet?understanding?
i really dunno.
but wadeva it is.
i shall take 1 step at a time larx.


i always wished to be wid
some1 that can make my heart melt for him.
some1 that can make me smile when im wid him.
some1 that is able to do the sweetest thing any ger can imagine.
some1 that could share his problem wid me.
some1 that i can spend my life wiid.
are you the guy im looking for?
i cant wait for 9sep2009.
will it be the day i smile? or will it be the day i cry for.

got asked to do the followin quiz by my cousin.
so here it goes..

Q1. do u have secrets?
ya. who dun?
Q2.would u fall in love with a guy?
err. if cos.
Q3.do u enjoy goin to sch?
hmm. last time in sec sch ya. now. no.
Q4.what will u do with a billion dollar?
get my 350z and save the rest?! earn interest. :D:D:D
Q5.what is your view towards love?
honesty and understandin.
Q6.which is more blessed,loving someone or being loved by somone?
loved by some1 (:
Q7.how long will u be willing to wait fer a person whom u love?
dependin if its worth it?if there is a chance between us i will try my best
Q8.if th person u loved once is now attached,what will u do?
nothing. carry on wid life and hope he is happy?!
Q9.is there anything tt has made u extremely happy?
hmm ya. lots of them
Q10.what makes u angry?
backstabber.
Q11.How do u see urself in 10 years time?
married wid 2 kids?!
Q12.who is currently important to u?
honeyy&&darlinn
Q13.what is most important in ur life?
family,bf&frens
Q14.what if ur best fwens dropped into th sea nnd didnt how to swim,who would u save first?
hmm. my best fren and who?
Q15.Favourite colour?
pink!pink!and more pink!
Q16.Would u give it all in a relationship?
hmm. it really depends. i gave it before and it hurts real deep
Q17.if ur ex hurt u badly wants u back,what will u do?
no chance will be given. i cant go through the pain again.
Q18.how r u feeling right nw?
hungry.lost?
Q19.love or like?
LOVE


today was another skip sch day.
and was out wid honeyy.
saw a hot pink 350z larx.
was freakin hyper lorx.
until honeyy was shocked to see me behaving like dat.
wad you expect?!
its my favourite car wid my favourite colour?!
super pretty larx.
and i asked honeyy to get 1 of his car that colour.
and he agreed!
hahax. (:
happy larx.
still cant forget the image.
today has been a long day for me.
lots of things are still happenin.
can i stop behavin like dat?!
can i start growin up?!
would i be able to go through this?
and before i forget.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SIMAN!
finally 18 yrs old le.
can club and drink le.
hahax. but im statin the obvious.
you dun even do the above stated.
anyway hope that your wishes will come true.
and that no matter wad you wont be sad okie?!
stay happy and cheerful.
good luck for your comin exams (:


i really want to make you my last.
im sorry for my attitude and stuffs.
i will change for a better.
please give me some time to do so.
i will be the prefect gf you have and the prefect wife you will have! (:

hmm. my mum has been tryin to brain wash my mind.
i really lurve my honeyy.
and i really want to put my whole heart in this relationship.
but she is like tryin to tell me
that he is cheatin me lying to me.
and wadeva you think of she said it.
first she say he mayb married
den she say he is lying to me cos he wans to have sex wid me.
den now she is sayin he may want to sell me.
seriously. which mother will say all these stuffs?!
hmm. but all these words.
really goes into my mind.
cos i wont know the truth.
if honeyy is tryin to hide sth i will nv know right?
cos im not 24/7 wid him.
but still he contacts me and stuffs.
and i know wad he is doing and dealin wid.
argh!!
i really dunno.
seriously, can some1 make my life easiler?
haiss~
why is there so many problems that keeps coming to me?
can some1 help me???

hello!
i just reached home (:
and its like 3.10am now?
had such a wonderful day today.
lots of memories~
me&honeyy had a wonderful dinner at his fren's restaurant.
its a little ex thou.
but its worth it.
hmm. saw gilson,junhao,vincent,freddyand gang.
cant rmb who le.
hahax.
freddy started sayin that now is the time for me to play.
and dat i will regret about gettin married at this age.
hmm. i wont let you see that i regret.
cos i have a mature thinkin.
thou i may start going to club.
but i dun go wid any1?!
i go wid my honeyy.
and i dun dance or flirt or wadeva shit.
im serious about wad i do.
and i think i had enough of play.
i just wanna settle down.
hmm. yupx. and i really lurve him okie?!
so after dinner went to meet darlinn at east coast.
den went to bird park to catch prawn.
damn fun lorx.
thou catch only 2 but still its nice to spend time wid honeyy.
after prawnin.
we played pool for awhile.
and guess who i saw?
ivan and ah huat.
hahax.
that conclude my whole day (:
mayb going out wid darlinn tomolo (:
im so happy!~
lalalala~

just came back from st james.
and i think its much more happening there on fri den sat
its like. i reached at 9.30pm.
de place was packed wid ppl unlike sat.
and its like alot alot of ppl larx.
hmm. i think i abit addicted to clubs le.
but i dun dance. i just listen to music.
its fun (:
and wid the amount of liqour honeyy has there.
can last us for dunno how many yrs larx.
so can slowly enjoy~
anyway its free.
wahahaha :D:D:D
im quite tired now.
have been sleepin in honeyy's car.
and ya. waitin for him to reach home before sleepin (:
think i will stop here.
wanna rest a little (:

honeyy,
i lurve you real lots.
you mean much more to me each and everyday.
i really dun mind doing alot of things for you.
and i think its all worth it.
and i hope you make me feel its worth it (:
thanks for tryin to make me smile everyday.
despite me feeling stress up now and den.
I LOVE YOU!

finally. just when i decided to be a bad ger.
my mum didnt scold me?
i was waitin for her to scold me
so dat i can leave the hse and get my own life.
and she didnt even scold me?
haiss~
im already stressed up wid sch stuff.
and she is not helpin.
who would like to go home and get nag all day long?
i mean i have been a good daughter.
i tried to do everything i could to keep myself cool.
and she thinks im rude?!
im seriously going to go nuts soon.
its either i kill myself.
or i freakin hell go crazy.
i rather to be kept in a mental hospital or mayb a ger home.
den be at home.
i know she is stress up thanks to my bro and dad.
but doesnt she knows i have my own stress
and i do have feelings too?
i really wanna go to a place far far away from my home.
mayb 1 fine day i will leave.
i will leave everything behind
and i mean everything.
and i will let no one know where i will be.
and wad i will be doing.
it will be a mystery dat ppl may think i am dead.
im so so lookin forward to it (:

another day out wid honeyy.
went to his house for the very first time.
and i was like super scared?!
he everytime say his grandmother until damn scary.
but lucky its over.
and yes. his room is damn small! hahax.
im glad that is not my room.
wahaha :D:D:D
hmm. after dat went to have dinner.
and check out the prices for the trips.
hmm. its more expensive den expected.
dunno if darlinn able to go.
but bobian.
we book so late only left wid SQ
de cheaper flights all sold out.
haiss~
just hope darlinn can come.
if not me&&honeyy would be going japan bahx.
but i rather go wid darlinn thou.
seem more fun wid more frens around?
shall see how things goes for her bf.
so i have to go sch tomolo.
damn sianx.
thou its just 3 hrs?
but i dun really wan to go larx.
i dunno if i am scared or wad.
i can feel like im scared of seein that bitch thou.
dunno larx.
haiss.

i really wonder if i treat you good enough.
you always tells me about how good you treat your ex?
and i dun really feel you treat me the same?
mayb i have high expectation on you.
but i wish and yearn for your love,care&concern.
i know you do love,care&concern for me.
but mayb i expect more from you?
i dunno wad im thinkin.
just wanna express my feelings out~ :(

okie as requested by darlinn.
THANKS FOR BEING THERE FOR ME FOR THE LAST 4 YEARS!
i really appreciate it.
and you will always be my darlinn okie?
haiyo. like dat also wanna jealous.
wahhaha :D:D:D

today ms tan called.
and asked if im okie and stuffs
and i told her i want to quit sch.
she said just left wid 3 more mths.
very fast finish le.
keep askin me to go back sch.
honeyy also said i shd.
but i am real unhappy about going back.
seriously i dunno who i can turn to.
who will understand the pain?
haiss~
lotsa things have been happening.
my mum has been naggin at me.
and i am having prob wid honeyy.
why things dun always go the way i want it to be?
will i get the dream i always wanted?
all i have to do is to wait and see.
haiss~

hello!!
im back for updates.
have not been home for the past 2 days?
honeyy booked a room at Carlton for me to de-stress.
and i was allowed to stay over.
its one of the happiest moment of my life.
i lurve you honeyy.
but i felt time pass like super fast?
i was lookin forward to it for the whole week.
and den it kindda pass in a blink of an eye
haiss~ depressing.
but im really very happy for the past few days.
everyday wake up in honeyy's arm.
im like missin him already.
argh..
have to go sch tomolo.
haiss.
just tahan for 1 more mth?
and no more sch for me!
wahahaha!
im gonna spend all my precious time wid my honeyy.
it really feels as if we knew each other for yrs.
the feelin is really different.
i felt like i know him well enough.
dat makes me want to spend the rest of my life wid him.
and ya.
we are making decisions for it too (:
will it be too fast?
but i always wanted to get married on my 19th birthday.
its like so cool.
im 19 and the date is like 09.09.2009
cool right?
i just hope honeyy will be fine
and things will work out.
im looking real forward and feelin very excited!
it mayb only 10 mths away.
but it still seem quite far to me.
but wadeva the case is.
i lurve my honeyy and i wanna be wid him forever (:
muacks ~

does Cinderella really exist?
i have been dreamin of princesses since i was young.
and i really wonder if its true.
its every girls dream to get marry to their prince charming.
and that they live happily ever after.
but does all these really happens in reality?
i dun think so.
marriage seem so be sth wonderful on my mind
but yet it seem scary when i think about my parents.
i would love to be Cinderella.
being tortured at first and will have a sweet and happy ending.
i would like my story to be like this.
will it happens?
honeyy was sayin im easily bullied.
in a sense that my heart is too soft.
and i was thinkin about it.
mayb its true?!
thats why i have been cheated by so many guys
seriously am i stupid or wad?
i trusted so many but yet they failed me.
made me felt like some fool.
haiss.
i really wanna breakdown already.
nothing keepin me from going except for honeyy.
he has been there for me.
thou i dun really tell him much about my prob.
but i know he feels the pain i am going though.
i just hope this will mark the end of all my relationships.
i cant go through another break up.
its real tough going through it.
falling in love may seem easy.
but gettin out of it is real hard.
i still feel the pain.
those ppl have given me.
haiss.

i just wanna spend more quality time wid you
as much as possible.
i dunno wad will happen in the future.
and i dunno wad i will become.
but i hope we will still pull through together.
you have given me many happy&&sweet memories.
and that is more den enough for me
a BIG THANK YOU for you
(:
im sorry to have said this.
but i lurve you too much to lose you.
and i really mean wad i say.
muackss~
you are my one and only honeyy!!

UPDATES!!
i have figured out that i wanna quit school.
i will try to go for classes for this term.
and once it reached next term.
i am out of that fucking sch.
im really pissed going back.
i dun even have the mood.
due to some person dat freakin make me pissed off.
i think i will go back to my working life.
but i guess i work part time.
i wanna acc my honeyy for as long as possible.
time is real real precious to me.
and he even agreed i shd just freakin leave the sch.
its givin me lotsa stress.
To darlinn,
I know i forced you to acc me into this sch.
and now that i wanna quit you will feel a little lonely.
but im real sorry.
im just freaking stressed up wid my class.
too many things just pop up.
and i think im really going into depression.
if i continue thinkin so much.
its hard to say dun think when i will.
im really sorry.
hope you will understand.
i went out wid simunn love.
had quite an enjoyable day.
we went shopping and talkin about stuffs.
and its been real long since we last met.
and ya so happy i met up wid her.
photos will be uploaded when i have the time
(:(:(:
after that honeyy came to fetch simunn home.
and we went to paragon for dinner.
FINALLY, i got my bloody pay.
after waiting for freaking 2 months.
i finally got it.
wahaha.
at least im not too broke now.
i think i wont be going school tomolo again.
and i am not gonna care about taking mc(s)
sch wanna de-bar me.
i more happy lorx.
save me all the trouble.
but im really sorry to some of the gers.
i know you were there for me.
encourage me through.
but i really cant stand it anymore.
dats it. i give up.
im a quitter wadeva.
i am freakin gettin out of that sch.
dun wanna see that bitch in sch.
argh..
i am like super pissed now.
change subject..
on a happy note.
i mayb going to genting wid honeyy this week end.
hahax.
and i was pretty shocked too.
my mum was askin me in the mornin.
if honeyy can actually bring us to genting during the weekends.
my mum is quite stressed up too.
thanks to my dad.
and i think it was a good idea too.
cos im bloody stressed up.
i just need too cool myself down.
and how i wish i can just leave my stuffs behind.
and enjoy every seconds wid honeyy.
but have to reconfirm.
honeyy may not get his passport this week.
so have to see how.
and ya. i will most prob going to taiwan next month.
wid honeyy of cos.
but dunno if darlinn can come too.
i am lookin real forward to that.
i pray real hard for it.
okie i think i wanna end here.
today i blog till so long.
also dunno why. think im freakin stressed up.
haiss~
can someone save me from all these?!

saw this in guowei's blog and think its interestin
look carefully at the pic. and wad can you see?

updates!
hmm. just reached home like 4.30?
was out the whole day!
im like damn happy today.
hmm. dunno why.
sth nice happened.and i am not gonna blog about it~
lalala~
hmm. went to st james again.
and today was damn good.
sly was in dress?!
wtf larx.
i was laughin my head out.
and honeyy didnt believe me at first
and said i was drunk.
wahahax :D:D:D
stupid
but i think i was almost drunk today.
so we rest till like 4 den came back.
had such a wonderful night today.
dat i wished not coming home.
but ya. have to.
if not the queen will start naggin at me le.
and mayb stop me from going out~

i am bored bored bored!
decided to blog sth.
honeyy is sleeping (:
these few days haven been able to sleep properly.
sleep real little.
and when out wid darlinn
will be sleeping in the car :/:/:/
haiss.
also dunno why.
went to see the 350z yesterday.
prettyyyy~
i love it so so much.
hahax.
i cant imagine me driving in that thou.
its really a dream come true! (:
wadeva.
but all i want now is to spend more time wid him.
i dunno how much time he is left wid.
its really very torturing
to be wondering if that special some1
will be able to wake up.
i really hate this feeling.
but its real hard to actually not think about it.
when thats the fact.
i really feel like spendin all my time.
includin quittin sch.
im givin thoughts about it thou.
haiss~
mayb this is the reason why i cant sleep well.


honeyy~
you meann way lot more to me each day.
life has been real different.
i understand the pain you are going through.
you dun wanna lose me.
neither do i.
but do we have a choice?
i just hope by prayin everynight.
god wont take you away from mee
you mean alot to me.
ilooveeyouuuuuuuuuu!

please dun leave me~
you mean alot to me! (:
thanks for the love and cares you had for me
i really appreciate it alot!
a million thanks to be said to you.
in all language
please dun change your love for me!
muackss~

hello!
have been sick for the past few days.
not feelin very well till now.
decided to blog sth.
i was sick since yesterday.
had diarrohea,vomiting and high fever.
argh..
all at 1 time.
damn xin ku.
didnt go sch today.
and have mc for tomolo too.
i am wonderin if i shd go see a specialist
my stomach is like super weak lorx.
haiss.
i really dunno larx.
im scared to see a doc.
im afraid of injections.
okie enough of my health.
dun wanna think too much about it too.
just wanna be happy!
and i wanna go for a holiday!
its either to taiwan or japan!
hmm. hope darlinn is able to go.
it has been quite some time since i went for a holiday wid her.
hmm. and i kindda miss those times!
i shall pray and hope!
it will be fun to go wid some1 you like.
widout any parents around.
ya. im llike so sleepy now.
wanna go rest first
nights~

lotsa of thomgs have been happening.
and i think i did the right choice.
im like a freed person now.
im super happy.
gets to do the things that i like.
and be the real me!
had enough of lying.
i had been lying for like the past 3 yrs?!
and hell is all i could describe
its really tough to lie.
and i had been doing it.
i hate myself so much.
why did i made such a stupid decision last time?
but boy am i happy that finally im freed!
so decided to go club on sat.
and i was like super happy and high on that night (:
pics are uploaded.
we went to st james at 9pm.
cos martin had free entry?!
so we stayed till 12am.
was bored.
so went to zouk
things was worst there.
decided to head to gotham penthouse
its cool lorx.
we saw so many lesbians there.
hahax.
darlinn left around 2+
den me and martin went out till like 6 de reached home.
was damn tired lorx.
but had so much fun.
think i may wanna go again next week (:
and i wanna rest for awhile
woke up at 9+ thanks to that special person! (:

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