After the Rain, Comes the Sun den the RAINBOW ♥

♥ Friday, July 30, 2010

its friday, and i was happy till i came to work.
totally pissed me off.
my pants were like half wet.
and den my blown dried hair was wet too.
pissed the ass out of me :x
tryin to be not so pissed.
last night outing with JY and S was fun.
thou i emo-ed for awhile.
but i think things will get better.
after all. i am loved by so many ppl (:
there is so many things i wanna do.
so many places i wanan go.
mayb being single isnt that bad afterall.
but i really wonder if i could stay single for long.
it has been years since i actually stayed single for more den 2 mths.
never liked being alone.
we shall see. haha !
the weekends are approaching.
im gonna have hell lotsa fun !
oh ya. im trying my best to come up with a new banner.
but i need a laptop soon to get that done.
mac or a normal laptop ?! can some1 advice me on this ?
im a noob in IT stuffs -.-

Loved ♥

♥ Tuesday, July 27, 2010

okie. i have abandoned this space for almost a week now.
SORRY! have been ultra busy.
last weekend, fri and sat was fun !
met so many new frens and all (:
but on sun. i kindda died.
haha ! nua on the bed till 7pm. Imagine that...
yesterday, had to drag myself out of bed to work.
it started bad, but ended pretty well.
went to far east to get my nails fix.
Christina dear came to find me.
had dinner with me. and trained to lakeside.
JH came to fetch us from lakeside to a pub near my place.
didnt know there is 1 till last night :/
and so, we drank till about 11.30pm.
asked JH to go back first. cos he sounded no interested in supper.
me and Christina headed to MAC for supper.
den, JH smsed me. say why i bo jio.
sorry dude. i thought you were not interested. haha !
but you did enjoy your maggi *opps*
and so, after that. christina dropped me near my place and went home.
This morning woke up feeling so happy.
had a dream.. its a good 1.
its *you* in it. but ya. doubt it matters.
im happy thou its not real. cos for the past few week.
i dreamt we broke up and all. and it happened.
so ya, lucky its a good dream (:
still feeling ultra happy. was suppose to have lunch with JH
but he last min got a client appt.
oh well, went lunch with colleage.
am lookin forward to off work.
movies and dinner with JH (:
he very nice lor ! acc me watch it despite he watchin it already.
tml, gonna head out to meet my cousin.
first time watchin movie with my own cousin ! haha !
thurs, outing with JY. shopping for her.
for me ? i guess to window shop :x
Fri, its colleen birthday, gonna have dinner with the girls.
and mayb after that headin to party.
sat, outing with eve and party at night?
sun- i guess i need rest. its gonna be a hectic week.
and for next week. im booked on mon,tues,wed(notconfirm)and fri.
the other day still abit free. so ya. text me if you wanna meet for dinner (:
thats about it ! im gonna enjoy and live my life to the fullest.
even thou, im making myself so busy.
i still misses and think about "you" once in awhile.
i wonder if you do too ? :/

Loved ♥

♥ Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Hello ! I'm back !
Surprised ?
Me too. I didn't expect myself to get back up on my feet so fast.
I cried so much after mon, got a little sick on tues
Emo for the whole day
And today. When I'm up. I'm feeling so much better.
I guess its due to the words he said.
Since he wanna is bored of me why shd I buried myself in sorrows ?
Anyway. Its not like I'm totally fine now.
I do tend to miss him here and then
But at least I dun cry and make a big fuss of how much I love him.
I was such a bitch. And I admit. :)
Friends were right all along.
I'm not like so old, can't find any other guys mah.
I will meet the right guy. The 1 that is willing to love me with his heart
And obviously never get bored of me :)
And so. Cos of my breakup.
I start getting lotsa sms/calls/msn/msg on fb from frens
From Everywhere ! Hahaha.
I'm so happy. I feel so loved by you babes and dudes!
Thanks for standin by. Calling me to make sure I'm alright.
Lending me your ears to hear me cry. Thanks ! I love you all !
I'm ready to move on and take any challenge that is to stand my way from success !
Its wednesday, got lotsa frens askin me to go clubbing.
But I'm sorry ! No clubbin on weekdays !
I dun wanna be a zombie and commit any mistakes for work.
But fri and sat ! I'm free ! Feel free to ask me to party ;)
This fri. I'm gg to have movies with Jonathan den gg phuture with the girls.
On sat, meeting winnie for movies and zouk for YF's fren birthday.
Hopefully winnie will come too !
Yup. That's a summary for this week !
I will change my blog stuffs soon ! Bear with me for awhile!
Need to start findin pretty photos and all.
Yup. Tahan abit okie ?
And Once again ! Thank you all for supporting me ! :)

Loved ♥

♥ Monday, July 19, 2010

I doubt I would blog sth for the time being.
Its either I will change the link or private my blog.
This blog has too many painful memories.
But at the same time I dun wanna delete it.
So we will see how things goes.
Sms/call me if you care. :)
Or you can just follow me on twitter.
Till I'm prepared to face the world again
Good bye !

Loved ♥

♥ Saturday, July 17, 2010

Last night was a blast.
got myself so wasted.
and now im feeling so funny all over. ):
Love makes ppl changed.
and i guess i did changed for you.
I have done my best to make you stay.
but you prefer to move on.
and i hope i can too.
im tryin my best to forget your existent.
telling myself i can find some1 better.
but it seems that everytime i tell myself that.
i would take my EZ-Link card and take a peep at the photos.
The days that we spent together. somehow linger within me.
everywhere i go. it just reminds me of you.
it was happy memories. but it became painful memories now.
I really wonder how you can manage to forget me so easily.
and yes. how you did say you love me today. and say you dun the next day.
fuck! my post have been ultra emo recently.
I miss the happy ME ! ):

Loved ♥

♥ Thursday, July 15, 2010

Hello ! Back from KL last night.
Dun really know what to blog.
But I came across bf's fren blog.
She herself just came out from a r/s
And the way she do things make me admire her.
I dunno how tough it is for her. But I am gg thru the worst part.
I nv like break ups.
And now that I have to deal with 1 again.
It just pain me to think of it.
I dun wan a break up. I dun even wan to have all these.
I rather we are quarreling and all. Den have to go thru this.
But this is part of life right ?
Its stupid if I wan to end my life just cos I can't deal with it.
But it often seems like an easy alternative.
Wanna stand back on my feet.
I wanna be the independent person I used to be.
You had given me a relationship that was almost perfect.
So perfect that you just have to end it.
You gave us 6 mths. But I have a feeling you are gg to end it.
I have to take the hard way, and forget you.
So that I won't fall hard when you tell me that 6 mths later.
I nv regret loving you. But I regret trustin you.
Believing that you really want me in your life.
All I have to say is. At times I secretly wish you are still in army.
We mayb quarreling often. But you were strong
Believin in us even when I'm not.
Guess this is the final stage of us.
Thanks for the memory, even if it werent so great.
Your fav song :)
Last but not least.
I LOVE YOU!

Loved ♥

♥ Sunday, July 11, 2010

1 last night sleeping with him.
its feels so great despite the distance.
Im praying real hard that the coming week will pass quick.
and mayb he would realise he still loves me.
i doubt he even sees my blog now.
he used to see my blog and all to know my feelings.
but i doubt he bothers now.
I will try to blog often, but phone is always giving me trouble when i log on to blogger.
lets hope things will be back to normal once again.
(finger cross)

Loved ♥

♥ Saturday, July 10, 2010

If I do love you, I shd let you go right ?
Im sorry if im hurting you.
I will try my best to move on asap.
Mayb we arent meant for each other.
But honestly speaking. you showed me the love i wanted so much.
and i Thank you for that.
Im just disappointed with myself.
for not treasuring you when you did.
guess the quote "you will only treasure sth when you lose it"
is so... true. ):
I seriously wanna cry out loud now.

Loved ♥

♥ Friday, July 09, 2010

Please tell me wadeva i am doing is worth it,
I am really praying hard to have you back.

Loved ♥

♥ Wednesday, July 07, 2010

Our First Anniversary meal ♥

Travis Birthday(Overdued photos)

Loved ♥

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Its Wednesday.
Gonna head for another interview later on.
Hopefully i get this job.
pay is good (: plus. its a 9am-6pm, 5days week job.
Wanna start to go back to my normal life.
Mayb frens were right.
I shall start being happy.
Slowly returning back to my usual self.
If this is wad you wan. den i shall give it to you.
spent the whole morning looking back at the smses you gave me.
during the "honeymoon" period.
I felt so love. felt as thou i took you for granted.
i guess you wont know how to treasure sth/some1 till you realise its gone.
Oh God, I just hope to be given Strength to go through this again.
haven had such feelings since 1 year plus ago.

Loved ♥

♥ Monday, July 05, 2010

Its Monday. Just went for my interview earlier on.
Got the job, but its like super boring.
doing nth. :/ and the worst thing.
i cant surf net ):
mayb can secretly do so. wahahha :D
hope things will turn out better.
I need to get my life back. i need to stand up again.

A note for you:
375 days since we got together.
I wonder if it means anything to you.
I really dunno what you are thinking. what you are expecting from me.
If there is a chance to go back to the past.
Will you still wanna be with me again ?
Will you still send me those smses ?
Would you still want to be there for me when i was down ?
Would you still want to spend so much time to make this r/s happen ?

Loved ♥

♥ Friday, July 02, 2010